My pursuit of perfection is paralyzing. I also love alliteration. But I can’t digress in the second sentence – so let’s get down to business. After 12 years as an EA, I am trying my damnedest to attempt something new. I went to yoga teacher training and am actually teaching some classes. Private only for now – the thought of standing in front of a room full of people terrifies me. But all of this change terrifies me. Not just the teaching. But all of it. The fact that I don’t have a steady pay check. The fact that when I did have a steady pay check it was for about seven times what I am making now. This blog terrifies me. I think of old posts – pre-yoga teacher training posts – and how wrong they probably are and that I should go back and fix them. But then I think – no one is reading them, so why bother. But maybe no one reads this at all. Or maybe tons of people will and they will all judge me. But who are these people. And why am I so worried.
Have you seen the movie Finding Forrester? It’s actually one of my favorite movies. In it, there is a scene where Sean Connery’s character tells Rob Brown’s character that as writers, they must write. Even if they have no idea what they are going to write that day, they must sit down at the keyboard and write. And something will come – it may not be good or great but it will be something and you keep doing that until it is something great. So here it is – my first blog post in ages. And it is basically about nothing. But it’s something.